I never used to be a “napper.”
I thought it a waste of time and definitely judged those who did nap (I’m looking at you my darling husband)!
There was always too much to do and not enough time in the day and the more things I crossed off my list, the better I felt about myself and could prove that I was “enough” that I was “productive” that I “contributed” that I was “worthy.” Who had time for a nap????
Sound familiar??? Exhausting right?? Yup, me too.
But now I nap (honestly, it’s still hard for me to admit that).
I know, that’s a bit fucked up . . . but I’m working on it!
Let me be clear though . . . I still LOVE the hustle!
It makes me feel alive, vital & sparkly!
I ADORE my “to do” lists (I know, I’m weird . . . but I really do)!!
I feel productive and “in control” when I cross something off my list.
It comforts and calms me (especially now when our world is a bit of a “shit show”) knowing that I finished the laundry, cleaned out the chicken coop, called my mom, swept the garage, paid the bills, emailed a client and made dinner.
It gives me a rush and I DO feel productive when I see those checked boxes on my Evernote App . . . and I don’t think this is a bad thing as long as I seek out the balance between hustle and rest.
And to be completely transparent . . . this 50 year old body has seen a lot of life and is beginning to have a few aches & pains, bumps & bruises, twinges and spasms . . . and how long have I had that chin hair?!?
So you see . . . rest is important . . . for all of us.
That’s really all I have to say . . . just take a damn nap once in awhile, or at least “rest your eyes” (like my Grampa Lew used to say).
You can even put “rest”on your to do list so you get to cross it off!! OMG how exciting!
Oh, and another thing, my beautiful, kick ass people . . . you ARE “worthy” and “enough” and “valued” no matter how many things you crossed off your list today, just sayin’.
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