Meditating is something I really want to WANT to do . . . but I don’t.
I bought a book about the how to’s, the why’s, the should’s of meditating . . . I read it.
I bought a beautiful bright orange meditation pillow and tried it out . . . once.
I have attempted to make time in my schedule to meditate, but I always fill it up with something else . . . always.
And then . . . my “ah ha” moment.
I am forcing my meditation practice to look like my “should’s”. . .
It SHOULD be in a quiet room.
My eyes SHOULD be closed.
My breathing SHOULD be calm and even.
I SHOULD be sitting on my pretty meditation pillow.
I SHOULD not have any thoughts swirling around my mind.
I SHOULD be still, still, still!
Yeah right . . . I am not a big fan of being still or quiet or having my eyes closed!
I meditate in a room surrounded by loud and upbeat music, with someone shouting, “Your body is powerful, bring it on!”
I meditate with my eyes wide open, I don’t want to miss anything.
I meditate when my breathing is fast and deep and my strong heart is racing.
I meditate with my body glowing in sweat.
I meditate while pure and grateful thoughts flow through me.
I meditate while sitting on a stationary bike in Spin Class.
Spinning has become my new addiction . . . and now I know why.
It has all of the elements I thought I wanted and needed from “traditional” meditation . . . but with an edge, my edge . . .
presence
connection
focus
love
peace
I only spin once or twice a week . . . but it’s enough . . . I stopped listening to my “should’s” and chose my “edge” instead . . . authentic to me . . . working for me!
What “should’s” are you listening to?
Are they working for you?
Are you forcing yourself to
work
dress
love
live
the way you think you SHOULD?
Find your edge . . . and begin to get rid of your “should’s”.
Your strong heart will beat faster.
Your eyes will be wide open.
Your thoughts will be pure and grateful.
Your inner voice will shout, “I am powerful, bring it on!”
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